The next two days were quiet and pleasant, and passed peacefully.
When she wasn’t at her symposium, Charis spent most of her time either in her bedroom or her training room, with Rowyn. Often, moaning could be heard from the hallway.
“Yeah, they’re like a couple of rabbits whenever they’ve been apart for any length of time,” Cullen said as Kieran paused outside the training room on the way to breakfast. “They might start getting back to normal today, or it might be tomorrow.”
Kieran nodded, smiling shyly as Cullen put his arm around the boy’s shoulders.
He still wasn’t sure how to take Cullen. The man was friendly and cheerful, but boisterous and irreverent. He was always smiling, always joking, always teasing, even to his owners.
But somehow, he always kept a unique sort of balance between the respectful reverence slaves were expected to show, and the good-natured playfulness.
And underneath it all was an intensity that stunned Kieran the few times he’d seen it. He would not forget the darkness in Cullen’s eyes when Ilya had lost his temper. When Ilya had pushed Charis, Cullen had been there, all the friendly playfulness gone from his eyes, replaced by a grim determination.
Kieran had no doubt Cullen would’ve stepped between his owners to protect Charis. When he saw that look in the man’s eyes, he was completely sure that Cullen would’ve even gone as far as physically attacking Ilya. Such a move would undoubtedly cost a slave his life.
And Kieran was absolutely sure that Cullen would’ve done it.
That determination, that darkness was nowhere in Cullen’s eyes now. Now, they danced with playful mischief.
“Want to see what they’re doing in there?” he asked quietly, gesturing to the closed door.
“You’re not curious? They’ve been in there for a long time. Want to see what they’re doing?”
Kieran blushed. “I don’t think Domina would approve of that,” he said quietly.
“Sure she would,” he replied, his smile widening. “She’d just expect us to join in. So it’s a win-win.”
Kieran lowered his eyes, blushing even deeper.
Suddenly, the door opened and Charis stood there, grinning, at the two of them. “You’re not nearly as quiet as you’d like to think you are,” she said to Cullen.
“You mean you heard my dastardly plan?” Cullen cried, feigning surprise. “Oh, I’ve been foiled!”
She laughed, pulling him close for a kiss. “You’re such a horny slut,” she murmured.
“You wouldn’t want me any other way,” he returned, meeting her kiss passionately.
“You’re right,” she conceded. Then, she pulled away, her hand going between his legs. “So are you just going to stand there, all hard and dripping? Or are you going to come in?”
Cullen whined, thrusting into her hand. “I want to come in,” he murmured.
“I thought so.”
She turned to Kieran, smiling warmly at him. “What about you, Kieran?” she asked. “Do you want to come in?”
Kieran’s face flamed red, unsure of how to respond. The thought of all three of them was intimidating, but he didn’t want to tell his owner no.
Somehow, as she always did, Charis saw his thoughts in his eyes.
“Not yet,” she answered for him, a warm, reassuring smile on her face. “Soon, though.”
Soon happened later that night, after dinner. Charis pulled him into her room and closed the door behind them.
“Take your clothes off, love,” she said.
Kieran immediately obeyed, stepping out of his tunic and standing in the center of the room, adopting the appropriate stance.
A moment later, he felt her hand on his waist, moving across his back and up to his shoulder. As always, her touch sent chills down his spine.
“How are you feeling?” she asked quietly.
She smiled at him. “Good. Now that you’ve had a few days to adjust and get your bearings, I’m going to start training you in earnest. I want to talk to you a bit, get to know you, so I can decide what I’m going to be training you for.”
Kieran furrowed his brow, confused by that. “Domina?” he asked.
“I want to know what you like,” she explained. “Where you’re comfortable. So I can figure out where you’ll be happiest.”
He was even more confused than he’d been before her explanation. Why would his happiness matter? He was a slave. His life was to serve. That was his purpose. Why would his happiness influence anything?
“You’re still confused,” she observed, smiling warmly.
He couldn’t help but smile, himself. “A little.”
“You’re a slave, but you’re still a man,” she said patiently. “You still have a personality. You still have personal strengths and weaknesses. Those strengths and weaknesses affect what kind of slave you are, and how you serve.”
Kieran’s mind rebelled against that idea. He was supposed to be whatever kind of slave his owner wanted, and serve in whatever way his owner wanted. His personality was supposed to be pleasing to his owner. His strengths and weaknesses were supposed to be what his owner wanted them to be.
“I-I’m yours, Domina,” he stammered, unsure of what she wanted him to say.
“Yes, you are. Your body is mine, but your mind is yours alone. Knowing who you are, and embracing who you are, will help you find happiness in your service.”
If he allowed himself to acknowledge happiness, the kind of happiness she was talking about, that means he’d also be allowing himself to acknowledge sadness, too. Bitterness. Disappointment.
No, he couldn’t do that. His life was simple, now. All he had to do was serve. It was his entire life, it was what drove him. He couldn’t let that go.
Obey. Just obey.
“Hey,” Charis said gently, putting a reassuring hand on his face. “It’s okay. You’re alright. You don’t have to be afraid. It’s alright, we’ll drop the subject for now.”
Kieran took a deep, steadying breath, not realizing until just then that his heart was racing. He leaned his head into her hand, wanting the closeness and security she offered.
She hugged him for a moment, then pulled away and walked to her nightstand, pressing a button on her cell phone. “Well, I’ve seen how well you service women. Now I want to see how you service a man.”
“Yes, Domina,” he answered, relieved. Whatever she wanted him to do, with whoever she wanted him to do it with, would be easier than this conversation.
“That’s what most of your experience is with, right?” she asked. “Servicing men?”
“Yes, Domina. Lord Roubanis did not have many women friends.”
“Did you often service his friends?”
Kieran nodded, lowering his gaze. “He was proud of me,” he murmured. “He liked to show me off.”
He took a deep breath. “They used my body in many ways, Domina,” he said. “Fucking me, beating me, humiliating me. Whatever they wanted.”
She held his gaze, her eyes dark and wide with compassion. “You’re so young,” she whispered. “And you’ve been through so much.”
Kieran averted his gaze, the color rising in his cheeks. He didn’t know how to respond to that.
Suddenly there was a knock on the door, and Rowyn walked in.
“You called me, Domina?” he asked.
“Yes, come in,” Charis replied, stepping away from Kieran. “Take off your clothes. Kieran is going to suck your cock.”
The suddenness and directness of her comment took Kieran by surprise, but Rowyn only flashed a friendly smile as he pulled his tunic off.
“Go on, pet,” Charis urged.
Kieran dropped to his knees at Rowyn’s feet, taking the older man’s cock in his mouth without hesitation. This was something familiar to him, something he knew, something he was confident that he could do well.
The familiarity was comforting as he felt Rowyn’s cock filling his mouth. He slid his tongue across the erect member, easily taking the entire length.
“Oh, gods, Domina,” Rowyn moaned, holding Kieran’s head with both hands. “His mouth is amazing.”
Kieran closed his eyes, shutting everything out but the feel and taste of Rowyn.
So this was what it felt like to be enjoyed. Rowyn wasn’t rough with him, he didn’t try to choke or gag him. He wasn’t necessarily gentle, but his movements were smooth and fluid, as if he wanted to experience every inch of Kieran’s mouth.
It was nice, actually. His mouth wasn’t being fucked to humiliate or hurt him. Rowyn wasn’t fucking him just for the sake of fucking him. He was fucking him for the pleasure of his mouth. And his smooth movements, along with the quiet moans and grunts, almost seemed appreciative.
And Kieran was surprised to feel somewhat empowered. It was quite clear that Rowyn was enjoying this, and Kieran was the one who was giving it to him. Kieran could control Rowyn’s pleasure, he could manipulate what the man felt.
He found himself wanting to experiment with this new idea. He tightened his lips, pressing the flat of his tongue firmly against the underside of Rowyn’s cock.
Rowyn gasped softly, his grip on Kieran’s hair tightening. Kieran felt a shudder go through the older man, his cock throbbing and his legs twitching.
And Kieran felt a great surge of pride.
It was oddly exhilarating.
“Stop,” Charis said suddenly, surprising Kieran. Somehow, he’d forgotten she was even in the room.
Immediately, Rowyn pulled away, his cock throbbing. Kieran noticed that he was panting just a little.
“Enjoying yourself?” Charis asked Rowyn playfully.
“Yes, Domina,” he answered huskily.
“Good. Go ahead and fuck him. I want you to finish in his ass.”
And Kieran felt his heart plummet to his toes. Somewhat robotically, he lowered himself to all fours, his eyes glued to the carpet, obediently pushing his ass out, waiting for Rowyn to kneel down behind him.
But that didn’t happen.
Charis’ voice startled him, and he looked up to meet her gaze.
“You’re afraid,” she said softly. It wasn’t a question, and she didn’t give him a chance to confirm or deny it. “Why are you afraid?”
Kieran opened his mouth to answer, and faltered, unable to find the words.
“Have you ever enjoyed being fucked?”
Kieran’s heart pounded, and every instinct told him to lie. But he knew better, he knew she already knew the answer to her question, and he knew that he needed to tell her the truth.
Charis nodded. “Alright, I won’t have him fuck you yet. He’ll finish in your mouth, instead.”
Kieran gave a sigh of relief. “Yes, Domina.”
Rowyn moved closer, putting a gentle hand on the back of Kieran’s neck, and pushed his cock into Kieran’s mouth.
“Be just a little rougher with him,” Charis said. “Only a little.”
“Yes, Domina,” Rowyn replied, firmly holding Kieran in place and fucking his mouth.
Kieran shut his eyes tight, pushing all thoughts out of his head except for the cock in his mouth, and what he had to do. Rowyn was big, and hit the back of Kieran’s throat with each thrust, but years of training had taught Kieran to suppress the gag reflex, and he took the cock easily.
And while Rowyn was forceful and firm, he wasn’t cruel, and he didn’t hurt Kieran. The hand on his neck stayed gentle, even after Kieran expected him to grab a fistful of his hair. His movements were very deliberate, and it became obvious to Kieran that he was thinking just as much about Kieran’s comfort as he was about his own pleasure.
“May I cum, Domina?” Rowyn asked after a few moments.
Rowyn’s grip on him hardened just slightly, and his rhythm picked up, pounding hard into Kieran’s mouth.
A few seconds later, Rowyn moaned, pushing his cock as deep into Kieran’s mouth as it would go, his body jerking as he came.
Kieran swallowed, remaining still as the quickly softening cock throbbed in his mouth. He waited obediently for Rowyn to release him.
Rowyn sighed, then stepped back, pulling out of Kieran’s mouth. He smiled down at him, caressing his face once, and then affectionately ruffling his hair.
“How was he?” Charis asked.
Kieran blushed, looking away from those bright blue eyes. He really did feel powerful, having given Rowyn that pleasure, and it made him feel warm and tingly to know that Rowyn had enjoyed him, and that he’d done well.
Charis approached, wrapped an arm around Rowyn, and planted a quick kiss on his cheek. “Thank you, pet,” she said. “Go on, we’ll be out soon.”
“Yes, Domina,” Rowyn answered, reaching down to grab his tunic. Without another word, he quickly left the room, closing the door behind him.
Once they were alone, Charis sat on the bed and gestured for Kieran to come to her. He quickly obeyed, kneeling at her feet and resting his chin on her knee.
“You’ve been exceptionally obedient,” she said softly, stroking his hair. “And you’re very good at hiding your feelings when made to do something you don’t want to do. But no matter how hard you try, you’ll never be able to hide the things you’re afraid of.”
“I’m sorry, Domina.”
“No, love, you don’t have to be sorry. After what you’ve been through, I think you’re completely justified in being afraid to be fucked. Anyone would fear it.”
“Yes, Domina,” he murmured, relieved.
She lifted his chin to meet his gaze. “I’m going to teach you not to fear it,” she told him. “And to take pleasure from it, even if you don’t like the person fucking you.”
Kieran’s heart began to race. “Yes, Domina.”
“Do you trust that I won’t hurt you?”
“Yes, Domina,” he replied, his voice shaking. He was pretty sure he trusted her, she’d been gentle with him so far. But the idea of being penetrated by anyone, even her, was enough to make his muscles lock with fear.
“Come on, then,” she ordered softly. “Get on the bed. On all fours.”
Trembling, Kieran stiffly moved to obey her command. His face flamed and his heart raced as he stared down at the sheets beneath him, feeling her move behind him and wondering what she was doing.
“This is not supposed to hurt,” she told him. “If it does, I want you to tell me.”
“Yes, Domina,” he replied, unable to stop from cringing as her fingertip pressed against his entrance.
“Good. Now take a deep breath.”
Somehow, Kieran managed to obey. How, he had no idea, his chest had seized up with fear and dread. His arms shook as they supported his weight, and the sharp sting of tears could be felt behind his eyes.
Slowly, gently, she eased a single, slender finger into him. Kieran whimpered, his vision blurring with tears.
“That’s it,” she said reassuringly, running the fingers of her other hand along his back. “Good boy. That’s as deep as it goes. You’ve taken it all.”
He sighed audibly, though he still trembled.
She was right, it didn’t hurt. Objectively, it didn’t even feel bad. But years of associating penetration with pain were not easy to let go.
“Deep breaths, love,” she said. “You’re doing wonderfully.”
The softness of her voice and the reassuring praise helped. He took a deep breath, trying to forget what his life was like before her, trying to focus only on now, only on her touch, on her voice. He tried not to remember what it meant before when someone penetrated him.
“Are you ready for me to start moving it?” she asked gently. “Or would you rather have another minute or so of it just being still?”
Having her ask that question felt more odd and awkward than the finger inside him. “I’m ready,” he replied. He didn’t think he’d ever get used to being given a say in what was done to him.
All thoughts of that flew from his mind, however, when her finger began slowly moving back and forth.
He’d never been fucked without it hurting before, and the pain had masked every other sensation. Without that pain, the feeling was intense and foreign, and made him feel vulnerable and, surprisingly enough, aroused.
He gasped, his hands balled into fists. The finger inside him stilled.
“Are you alright?” she asked.
“Yes,” he managed to croak, wanting the movement again.
When she started fingering him again, he closed his eyes and lowered his face to the bed, moaning softly.
“Well it looks like you can at least tolerate this,” she said. “Now let’s try something else.”
The movement of her finger changed. Instead of thrusting smoothly in and out of him, it went deeper, her hand pushing against him, her finger exploring inside him.
Suddenly she touched something…. Something powerful, deep inside him. It sent bolts of lightning up and down his spine, all the way to his fingers and toes. He gasped, his body jerking with the intensity of the sensation.
“Ahh, there it is,” she murmured, massaging that spot.
Kieran cried out, pleasure exploding from his belly, shooting up and down his cock, up and down his spine, making his entire body tingle uncontrollably.
“Oh, you’re especially sensitive,” Charis said. “Do you enjoy this?”
“Yes, Domina,” he gasped, pushing back against her.
Dear gods, he actually enjoyed it.
But then, how could he not? Whatever she touched inside of him completely took control of him.
“Good. I’m going to put a second finger in. It’s still supposed to feel good, so tell me if it doesn’t.”
“Yes, Domina,” he answered, a strange mix of desire and fear building in him at the thought of another finger. On one hand, he was still afraid of the pain that so often came with any kind of penetration. But he was surprised to find himself actually wanting something bigger inside him.
She slid the second finger in, stretching him. Squirming and writhing, he cried out as he was filled up. The second finger made the sensations even more intense. There was a slight tinge of pain, but surprisingly enough, he liked it. It brought the pleasure into sharper focus.
Moaning, he pushed back against her as her fingers sunk all the way inside him, stretching him.
He almost screamed when he felt an unexpected hand on his cock, stroking him.
“That’s a good boy,” she said approvingly, using long, fluid movements on him.
He could feel the tension building in him, hot and sweet, as she massaged him inside and out. The feel of her hand on him, the feel of her inside him quickly brought him to the threshold.
“Domina,” he gasped. “Can I cum?”
“Yes, love,” she answered.
Mere seconds later, the tension in his belly exploded, and he cried out, collapsing on the bed, completely spent.
“Very good boy,” she murmured, running her fingertips along his back.
Kieran moaned softly, curling himself around her, wanting to be close to her. He felt open and vulnerable, but safe and protected.
“So was it as bad as you thought it would be?” she asked playfully.
Kieran closed his eyes. “I didn’t know it could be like that,” he whispered breathlessly. Charis laughed.
“And that’s just a finger. Wait until it’s a cock.”
Shuddering, Kieran buried his face in her lap. Gods, a cock? How would he survive something like that?
How would he survive her?
“Come on,” she said, patting him on the leg. “Get up. Let’s go to the bathroom.”
Somehow, he managed to get his body to move. His limbs shaking, he staggered to his feet, reaching out to her for support.
She readily helped him, holding him close as she reached down to push another button on her cell phone. “Come,” she said gently, leading him through the bedroom and into the master bathroom.
Kieran realized he’d never been in the room before. It looked much like the bathroom down the hall from his room. The bathtub was in the same place, but larger. Two vanities sat against opposite walls, the mirrors and counters running the length of the walls. At the back was a large shower with two showerheads.
Charis led him to the bathtub and turned on the faucet. He watched, his body still tingling, as she poured a sweet-smelling liquid into the bathtub, just as she’d done his first night there.
But unlike his first night there, she rose and removed her peplos. And unlike his first night there, the thought of being in the bath with her brought no fear. The sight of her naked still intimidated him, but by now he knew that she wouldn’t hurt him.
He watched quietly as she stepped into the tub, sitting on the curved seat and leaning back against the porcelain.
“Come,” she said, inviting him to sit with her.
He obeyed, stepping into the warm water. She opened her arms and he went into them willingly, sitting between her legs and leaning back against her chest.
“Good boy,” she murmured, kissing his ear softly as she took a soft washcloth from the edge of the tub, dipped it in the warm water, and placed it on his chest.
Kieran’s head swam. The afterglow of his orgasm, the warmth of the water, the feel of her bathing him, and the intimacy of being in her arms made it difficult to focus on anything else. He was barely even aware of Rowyn entering the room.
“You called, Domina?”
“Yes, love,” she replied. “The comforter on my bed has been soiled. Will you please throw it in the wash and put a new one on?”
“Thank you, my love.”
He smiled at her, then turned and left to fulfill her command, and she turned her attention back to Kieran.
The young boy lied limp against her as she bathed him, his breathing slow and even, his eyes closed, his expression calm and relaxed. For the first time since she’d purchased him, fear wasn’t etched into the lines of his face. The corners of his lips weren’t turned in that worried frown he always wore. His brow wasn’t furrowed with worry.
As beautiful as he was when he was when she’d bought him, he was even more beautiful once the fear disappeared from his face.
She watched him, taking in his expression as her hand lowered beneath the surface of the water, down his stomach, between his legs.
He gasped softly at the feel of her hands on him, but the fear didn’t return to his face. His expression was still relaxed, his breathing still even, his body still limp as he lied against her.
Gently, tenderly, she bathed him, every inch of him. And the more she touched him, the more relaxed he became, until she wondered if he would fall asleep right there, in the bath.
When she was done, she set the washcloth down and kissed his forehead gently. “Come on, love,” she whispered, rising to her feet.
He took her hand, his eyes opening to look up at her.
She helped him out of the tub and wrapped a towel around herself, then grabbed another and gently toweled him dry. Once she was done, she led him through the bedroom, down the hall, to his room.
“Go on, pet,” she said, pulling the blankets back. “Lie down.”
Wordlessly, he obeyed her, climbing into his bed and resting his head on the pillow. But even as he moved, he reached for her, wanting to be close to her.
Charis was happy to oblige him, lying down beside him. For the first time, he actually turned to her, moving closer to her and nuzzling into her. He gave a soft, contented sigh and fell asleep in her arms.