… What do you do when you want to get away?
I mean, we already live in the tourism capital of the world. I was born here. I was raised here. It’s nothing new to me. Nothing special.
So Kazander and I were looking at places to do another stay-cation this year. We considered the Luxor again, but honestly, that place has just gone so far downhill, neither of us wanted to go there again.
Which is sad. I remember when it first opened, when I was a kid. I loved that place. I loved staying there whenever my parents did a stay-cation. The first time Kazander and I stayed there, I was shocked at how bad it had gotten, but I was still nostalgic.
After the second time, though, even I had to admit that it wasn’t what we wanted.
Where, then, would we go?
He suggested the bustling metropolis of Laughlin (pronounced lof-lin, like in “loft”), NV, population, 8,000.
And I promptly laughed.
But then he said, “Well, they’ve got the river, and a couple of beaches, and jet skis and things. It could be fun.”
Hmm, that’s actually a good point.
I’d driven through Laughlin a million times, but never actually stopped in the town. I never gave it much thought. It was just one more tiny little town in the middle of the desert. A couple of casinos and a post office.
But the Colorado River is pretty cool, and I haven’t been to any part of the Colorado River since I was a kid.
So I looked it up. And sure enough, there’s enough other stuff to do there to keep us entertained for a few days.
Hell yeah, actually. I could definitely go for that. It’s out in the middle of the desert, which I love, in a nice, climate-controlled room, which I love, literally right on the bank of the river, which I love.
So we made the reservations and drove out today. We’re going back on Sunday.
And it just feels so damn good to get away.
Things are quickly reaching a boiling point with us living so close to his family. I’ve been wanting to move out for years, but never really pressed the issue, because I don’t work, and that wasn’t fair to him.
Then, in the last year or so, I started pressing. Because I need to get away from them. I know myself well enough to know my patterns, and they’ve been pushing me and pushing me. When I break, there will be no going back.
And his MIL and SIL (Mother-in-law and sister-in-law) have officially gotten me to my breaking point.
I have a friend, who used to be SIL’s friend, until he realized the kind of human being she is. But she did introduce us, and we hit it off great.
I was hanging out with him the other day when he got close and said, “I have something I need to tell you.”
My curiosity was piqued. “What is it?”
“SIL has been asking about you and Kazander.”
“What do you mean?”
“Like, she’s been asking if you’re into any kinky or freaky shit.”
At first, I brushed him off. “She’s done that before. She’s just bored and nosey.”
But the friend was not so easily assuaged. “She wants to find dirt on you to take the spawn from you.”
“She and MIL want you out of the picture. They want to find a reason to declare you an unfit mother.”
“She said that?”
“Not in those words, but she might as well have.”
He’s not known for lying or exaggerating, or drama-mongering, so I completely believe him.
“But they’d never want to take her from Kazander,” i protested.
“They think he’ll side with them.”
I started to laugh, then stopped, thinking back to all the times MIL just insisted that Kazander would side with her on different things, or agree with her, or take her (poor) advice, etc.
Yeah, she absolutely would think Kazander would side with her.
Holy fucking hell.
So I got home and told Kazander what was going on. He was shocked, but dismissive, and that angered me.
And I mean, I could see where he was coming from. He would never side with them over me, so there’s nothing they would ever be able to do. They could talk to lawyers if they want, but I have no record, I don’t do drugs, I volunteer with homeless veterans, I’m a total, upstanding citizen and all that jazz. I mean, there’s not a lot they could use. They’d have to do some serious digging to find anything remotely close, and he pointed out that they’re not intelligent or creative enough for that.
Okay, so cool, I’m in no immediate danger of losing my child.
That’s not the whole point, though.
Because we are living in an environment where people are conspiring behind my back to take my daughter from me. Whether or not they can succeed is irrelevant. I don’t want to be around that, and I don’t want my daughter around that.
So I told Kazander, “We need to move.”
He scoffed. “We’re not going to move. They can’t do anything. There’s no point.”
“I don’t care if they can’t do anything. It’s the fact that they want to do something!”
But he remained dismissive. Even after I said, “Either we need to move out, or I do.”
So I started looking at options.
I wasn’t going to play tug-of-war with my child. If they want her so bad that they’re willing to destroy her entire world, then fine. They can have her. Losing one parent would devastate her, but if Kazander’s family went through with this, she would either lose both parents (if his MIL and SIL won), or every member of her extended family (if he and I won).
That would hurt her so much more. God, that would crush her. I don’t think she could easily recover from that. It’s been so central to her whole world, her whole existence, ever since she was born.
God… That would… That would just kill her.
I could never let that happen to her.
And I have faith in my daughter. I have faith in the way I raised her. I have faith that, even if she’s brought up around those pathetic, terrible, small people, she will know the truth as she gets older.
It was Sounder who suggested another tactic, one that would keep my family together.
So I talked to Kazander again. I told him I wanted to move out.
He said, “What if I want to stay?”
I shrugged. “Then you can stay.”
That angered him a bit. “You’d break up with me over that?”
“Over your family having ridiculous amounts of control over us? Over you choosing them and that control over me and your daughter? Yes the fuck I would.”
So we agreed on a six-month trial run. We’ll get an apartment for six months, and then reassess and decide if living away from them is worth the inconvenience of not having them there.
And of course we won’t be going far. The family is still so important to the spawn, so we’d absolutely bring her over 2 or 3 times a week to spend time with them, or even spend the night once in awhile. But she won’t be spending weeks with them anymore. I told Kazander, in no uncertain terms, that’s coming to an end.
I want to be moved out by the time the spawn starts school. So I’m looking at apartments and Kazander is talking to his dad about how he’s going to manage the finances without living there. It can be done.
It will be done. Because staying there, keeping the status quo, is not an option anymore.
I’m stressed. All the time.
I’m on edge. All the time.
I’m short-tempered and irritated. All the time.
I can’t do this anymore. And I hated having to give him the ultimatum, but I was literally at a point where it was either that, or I would have to walk away. I’m not going to live in a place where people conspire to take my family from me.
It’s just not happening.
So due to the financial burden that moving out will be, we decided not to go to Cancun, as we’d planned in October. We’d need that for moving costs and rent.
But Kazander said, “With us not going, you really just need to get away for a few days. You need to get out of the house.”
Yeah, I really did.
Okay, so Kazander and I have very different ideas of a perfect vacation accommodation. I want a nice room. I want a suite. I want… not crazy expensive, but definitely not Motel 6. At least 3 stars.
Kazander hates paying more than he absolutely has to for a room. He’d do Motel 6’s the entire way.
And I get where he’s coming from. When we go on vacation, we have a budget. He’d rather spend the money on activities and cool things to do than the room. Where I would rather do cheap or free activities and be comfortable in the room.
So we’ve always compromised, and met in the middle.
Not this time.
We’re staying 4 nights, in a casino that has two separate kinds of suites. The second-tier suite, and the first-tier suites. He said we could get the top-tier suite.
You guys don’t understand. He has never agreed to anything even remotely like that, much less offer it himself. I was blown away.
And I appreciated the hell out of that. So I looked on the casino’s website, juggled some things around, combined a couple of promo packages, and found something that was $300 cheaper (I’m really, really good at doing that. I’m good at finding deals when I need to).
We’ll stay the first two nights, tonight and tomorrow, in the second tier suite. Then, on Friday, we’ll check out of that room and into the top-tier suite, where we’ll spend Friday night and Saturday night.
After him going so far as to give me the best suite in the hotel, I’m more than happy to have the second best for two nights to save him some money. It’s definitely worth the minor inconvenience of checking out and then checking back in. And the packages I combined come with some nice benefits and coupons that save us even more money on food and activities. So all in all, we’re looking at saving about $500.
Hell yeah, I’ll take the second tier suite for that.
So we drove out today, checked in, and walked up to our room.
And the room isn’t bad. I mean, you have to understand, it’s Laughlin. This is not Vegas. This is not even close to Vegas. The casino resort we’re staying in is, according to what I read, the nicest one in Laughlin.
…… That doesn’t really say much for Laughlin, m’kay.
Without the promo, after taxes and fees, the second tier suite would have cost $5 more than the pyramid suite at the Luxor for the same nights. And it’s about that quality, just without the big tub that the Luxor suite had. Or without the 12 years of dust hanging from the air conditioning vent that the Luxor suite had.
I mean, it balances out.
Still, kinda disappointing when you’re under the impression these are the “elite” rooms offered.
But it’s nice, it’s comfortable, we had a fantastic view of the sunset from our room, and the river is beautiful, and brings back so many memories. We’re going on a river cruise, we’re going to one of the beaches, we’re thinking about renting jet skis, I mean, it’ll be a really awesome stay.
Sounder is coming out this weekend, too, to spend some time with us. And honestly, both Sounder and Kazander are doubtful, but I promise, promise, promise that my reason for wanting him to come out to spend time with us is not to play, but to just hang out.
Kazander and Sounder are complete opposites in a lot of ways, but they’re almost eerily alike in other ways, especially regarding their senses of humor. I think they’d get along really well.
And my dream is to have all of us live together one day. Sounder and Kazander will have to spend way more time with each other than the occasional drink at a bar or the occasional cock in Sounder’s mouth to find out if that’s a possibility or not.
These are two very strong personalities, in two very strong men. It could turn out wonderfully, or it could turn out badly. I’ve had enough tense roommate situations to know that I don’t want to jump in to one again, without at least an idea of what we can expect and how we can all put in concentrated effort to make it work.
The only way to be able to make any sort of educated prediction about that is to have them spend more time together.
That’s why I want Sounder to come out. Not to play.
Although, of course, while we’re in the room, I’ll expect him to wear girls’ clothes. I mean, that’s just a given. He should be wearing girls’ clothes 24/7 when he’s not in public, anyway. Obviously he’ll wear it here, too.
And I mean, should the opportunity for play present itself, I won’t stop it. As I told Sounder earlier today, I will never pass up the opportunity to put a cock inside him.
But even if we do play, that’ll just be a small, short part of the evening. That’s not going to be the bulk of our interactions while he’s here. For the most part, it’ll just be chill, seriously just innocent hanging out.
So yeah, y’all…. I am beyond looking forward to the next few days.
And for someone who lives in Vegas, who has done the “Vegas tourist” thing over and over and over again, this is a welcome change. Hell, this might actually turn out to be my new favorite stay-cation place. Who knew?
Kazander often has good ideas, but he hit it way out of the park with this one. That was just sheer fucking brilliance.
Who would’ve guessed, Laughlin?