Let’s try this again.

I thought I was more or less done getting emotionally attached to subs.  That turned out to be wrong for a number of reasons, most of which I won’t get into here.  That’s a post for another day.

But there is one thing I will talk about.  And that is the sweet little CD sissy I met for lunch yesterday.  I had been talking to him for about a week, and he’s quite adorable.  He met me yesterday, dressed as a male, but I’m mostly likely going to be interacting with him while he’s en femme, and calling him by his sissy name, so it seems fitting that I refer to him as as “she” here.  I’ll also henceforth refer to her as “sissy.”

I got to the restaurant around 1:30 and met her outside.  She was extremely polite, very sweet, and a little bit nervous (they’re so freaking cute when they’re nervous, aren’t they?).  And for a moment in the beginning, there was a little bit of that awkwardness that always happens when I meet a new sub.  But within minutes, that awkwardness disappeared without a trace, and we found ourselves lost in conversation.

I was expecting to be there for an hour, maybe an hour and a half.  I finally left a little after 4.  I’d completely lost track of time.

She’s a great conversationalist, with a fantastic sense of humor.  I laughed so hard and so often, when I finally got the chance to look in a mirror, I saw that some of my eyeliner and mascara had smudged a bit (gasp!).

We talked about a wide variety of things.  I was surprised at how knowledgeable she was, with so many different subjects.  She’s only 25, but it’s obvious she’s spent a lot of time educating herself on a variety of things.  I certainly wasn’t bored.  And when I finally did look at my phone, I was shocked to find out how much time had passed.  It really didn’t feel like that long.

She seems so genuine, so sweet, so willing to go above and beyond what I normally expect from first meetings.  She even surprised me by handing me an envelope shortly after we sat down.

WP_20150728_15_45_59_ProTaped to the envelope are some bluebells.  When she handed it to me, she explained that bluebells are the flower symbolic of submission and submissives (I seem to remember seeing a sub with bluebells etched into her collar, but I may be mistaken… that was years and years and years ago).

She laughed, pointing out that these flowers are Texas bluebells, so technically not the correct flower, but try finding actual bluebells in Vegas in July.

I’ll be honest, I was stunned by that.  In all the years I’ve been doing this, with all the subs I’ve met, I’ve never had one go that far to make a good first impression.  So she has probably pretty effectively ruined it for any sub I meet in the future.  That’s a tough act to follow.

And, because I’m an astrology nerd (shut up, I do it for a living… for the moment, anyway) I asked when her birthday is.  I was stoked to find out that she’s an Aquarius, like me.  So that could definitely have something to do with why we were so comfortable with each other.  What’s more, I’m a mid-Aquarius (which is typically the most “Aquarius-like” Aquarius), while she’s a late Aquarius (which sort of gives someone a somewhat mutable, almost Gemini-like influence to the typical Aquarius traits), which could help alleviate the only real weakness in Aquarius-Aquarius relationships; emotional distance and a tendency to occasionally neglect the relationship.  With her having a more mutable influence, she may be able to help balance that out.

She’s pretty cute, too.  I’ve seen pics of her dressed, and can’t wait to see her en femme in person.

Oh, and she’s familiar with poly-type relationships.  She’s even sort of in one, herself.  She’s got a girlfriend, who knows about this side of her, knows that she likes to dress, knows that she’s submissive and wants a Domme.  The way sissy described it to me is that their relationship is amazing, and they’ve truly brought out the best in one another.  However, their sexuality is so completely different, so completely incompatible, they have opened their relationship and allow each other to have different partners (which makes me wonder if sissy’s girlfriend is an Aquarius, as well, or maybe a Gemini).  They both recognize that they’re simply too good together to break up because of a difference in sexuality, but that they both have needs that need to be met.

And damn, that’s pretty fucking awesome.

The bottom line is that she’s adorable, and I’m really looking forward to seeing where things go with her.  Because of past problems, I’m still staying a bit guarded, and not letting myself get too excited quite yet.  But I’m cautiously optimistic.  I’m going to wait a few months, and hopefully she’ll prove herself to be just as honest and genuine as she seems to be, and we’ll go from there.

Still kind of excited, though.  I’m letting myself be kind of excited.

2 thoughts on “Let’s try this again.

  1. Zed says:

    Well….I am glad, personally, that you are still emotionally ok with subs….take care though!

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