So I’m still freaking bummed about the nerd.
Like, seriously bummed.
Zane is still very promising, and I’m looking forward to seeing how that pans out. As of now, he’s the only one of the original three that is still a viable option. I haven’t been able to play with him since last Saturday, and he’s going out of town next week (he travels for work) so it looks like next weekend is the earliest I’ll be able to see him.
In the meantime, I actually have two other options (both considerably younger than I am… what’s with all these adorable little babies running around lately?).
One of them may pan out, but it’s doubtful. It looks like he’s more of a weekend-type player than a 24/7 sub. So I don’t have high expectations of him.
The other, I’m cautiously optimistic about. He’s twenty years old (twenty years old!) and a virgin.
Yeah, I could work with that.
And based on the very little I know of him at this point, he seems like someone I could get along with outside the bedroom, which is super important to me.
He’s a preschool teacher (and I have a preschooler that I never shut up about) so there’s that. From the way he describes himself on his profile, he’s a big guy, so it’s less likely that kazander’s size will intimidate him, the way it did with the petite nerd. I’ve always had a thing for taller guys, anyway. Being shorter than I am doesn’t disqualify anyone (zane is a tad shorter than I am, and he’s the one I’m most hopeful about), but those tall guys just catch my attention. He seems very eager to please and will go out of his way to be of service. He read my blog post bitching about the lack of Queen of Diamonds stuff, so he went and searched for some things, even messaging someone on Etsy to ask if they could make something for a Queen of Diamonds. I thought that was very sweet of him.
But again, there’s the inexperience thing that I’m a bit worried about. I told him about the nerd and my heartbreak there, and made it very clear to him that I am not the least bit interested in him if forced bi becomes a limit. He assures me that he can handle it, so I’m cautiously optimistic.
And to prevent the thing with the nerd from happening again, I’ve created a new rule. On the very first play session, there must be two types of interaction with kazander. First of all, they must interact on a social level. That means before I take the new boy back to the bedroom, we must all sit and chat for a few minutes. I understand that it’ll probably be quite awkward, so I’m not expecting a four-hour conversation, but there’s got to be something.
Secondly, there must be a level of sexual interaction between the two of them. On the first day.
I’m not going to get emotionally invested with someone, only to find out a month later that I’ve wasted my time and have to give up my toy. Again.
Originally, I was planning on making the new boy give kazander a blowjob, even if only for a few minutes. But then, after talking to kazander, I figured I’d probably have to amend that a bit.
I keep forgetting that kazander is still a tad reluctant to do the whole forced-bi thing. He’s a bit nervous about it, so I have to take that into consideration. And he empathizes with the idea of a completely inexperienced sub being made to give him head. He said it’s like throwing a kid into the deep end of the pool before figuring out if the kid can swim. And I get that.
So I changed it a bit.
There will be some sexual contact, without question, because I’m not willing to repeat the mistake I made with the nerd. The minimum is a handjob. Depending on how things go, depending on how kazander and the other boy are doing, and depending on my mood, that may change. They may even fuck, I don’t know. We’ll see.
So I’m looking forward to see if he works out. I’m hoping I can meet him soon.