The Repercussions of Losing a Bet

Kazander and I like to make things interesting. We’re both gamblers, and we’ve been known to bet on anything you can think of. Mostly football games, but when football season is over, we’ll find other things to bet on.

Last night, we went out for Father’s Day, and found ourselves at a bar, drinking and shooting pool. He suggested that we bet on the games. I agreed. First, we bet on whether or not he would be allowed to cum later that night.

And he won. But I was finding my stride, so when we bet again, I took a much bigger risk.

Part of me agreed to it because I was confident that I would win (once upon a time, I was actually pretty good at pool). Part of me agreed to it because it was Father’s Day. But regardless of the reasons, we agreed to the terms.

If I won, I would get a hefty chunk of cash toward my next tattoo. And if he won, we would switch, and he would be in charge for the rest of the night.

The little bastard won.

But I wanted to win.

But I wanted to win.

I never even had a chance. We played a total of seven games last night, and I won a whopping total of none.

Even unzipping my blouse further, showing more of my boobs, and leaning over right in his line of sight did nothing. Even groping him as he was taking his shot did nothing. Even trying to shove more alcohol down his throat until he was too drunk to aim did nothing. He won every game.

(It’s not cheating, it’s being resourceful)

So, when we got home, I spent the next few hours subbing to him. And it’s always a huge mind-fuck everytime I sub to him.

First of all, I’m not a sub. Never have been, never will be. It’s so foreign and alien to me. It feels so weird letting him take control. Part of me feels like I’m in someone else’s body, watching through someone else’s eyes. It’s weird.

But not completely unpleasant.

There are moments in submitting to him that I thoroughly enjoy. And that feels even weirder.

Last night was fun, and it was interesting watching myself submit to him. Wild mindfuck. Am I in a rush to do it again? Hell no. But it’s not my absolute least favorite thing, either.

4 thoughts on “The Repercussions of Losing a Bet

  1. writingthebody says:

    Well! That was a very good move…..nice. Sounds like it was fun too.

  2. That’s so cool that you guys switch sometimes. Does it ever make you want to submit more to him? You said that the feeling is strange, but do you like it? Is it a “good” strange, or a “bad” strange?

    • Domina Jen says:

      Thanks, I kind of like giving him that outlet. He’s always had a pretty prominent Dominant streak, even though he much prefers being submissive. Letting him take the reins gives him an outlet for all his built-up Dominant energy, and I’m glad I can give that to him.

      But no, it doesn’t ever make me want to submit more. It’s not that submitting to him is a bad thing. It’s just not who I am.

      And it’s a mixed bag, really. I guess I would say that it’s a “good” strange, if I absolutely HAD to pick between the two. It’s kind of hard to explain, really. I’m certainly in no rush to do it again, but I don’t dislike it, and like I’ve said before, there are many moments that I do thoroughly enjoy.

      I think it’s simply because of the trust I have in kazander. The idea of submitting to anyone else is absolutely repulsive to me. The thought of giving THAT MUCH control to someone else makes me shudder (and not in a good way). That’s why I’ve always had so much respect for submissives. It’s because they can do something I can’t. They can give up that control, while I desperately cling to it with every shred of my soul. Even just thinking about it now makes my hands shake. I could never do that.

      But I love and trust kazander enough to allow it. My heart-rate might triple when he ties me up and I realize that I’m helpless, but I know he’s not going to do anything I can’t handle. He knows just how deeply it goes against my nature, and he’s pretty gentle with me. If it wasn’t for that, and if it wasn’t for him, I’d never agree to it.

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