So it’s going to be a month before I can see Rocky again, and that makes me sad. It means I have to work on the patience thing a little more, and I don’t like that. But I guess there’s a reason for everything, and if I still like him as much in a month as I do now, then that’ll be a pretty damn good sign. And I guess it’s a good thing that we’ll have to wait so long. It gives kazander a bit more time to get used to the idea. He’s still not particularly enthused about it. I don’t think he will be until it actually happens and he finds out he actually likes it (which I know is going to happen). At least this way, he won’t feel quite as rushed into it.
At least I have my kid’s birthday party to help take my mind off of it. Granted, her birthday is still 2 and a half months away, but I have a lot to do before then. Oh yes. I go all out on her birthday party. I’m one of those parents. But I’m frugal and careful with my spending all year long. I want to be able to splurge, and this just happens to be the thing I want to splurge on.
And kazander can help me take my mind off the wait, too. I’ve been very nice the past couple of days. He’s been having trouble sleeping, so he’s been exhausted by the time we put the spawn to bed. Because of that, I haven’t really abused him. But tonight, that’s going to change. He’s mine tonight.